I’m not sure if you realize what you said, but the way I saw it, when you told me you were lonely was that you would rather be lonely than with me. Because as you tell me in the dead of night how you miss companionship, you forget that you could have had every part of me unconditionally not so long ago, obviously you were either so un-aware or simply did not care about this fact. Though that fact that you are now lonely is like a punch in my gut, a slap to my face. The fact that you would rather have been lonely, than have had my companionship.
‘Don’t assume how another feels, it will be your downfall’ you said. Perhaps I was the fool to allow others to assume how I felt, for that was my downfall.
Though now it is my turn to not feel lonesome. For instead of awaiting your companionship, and filling in your holes when you need them, I sought out my own new fresh companionship. It’s sort of exciting, so new and scary. Though perhaps I too am happy that even through everything, our friendship hasn’t been hindered, it still remains.
One thing I would want you to ask yourself: How many other friends would have stuck around, After abandonment, rejection, insults and embarrassment? And each time you came crawling back, I welcomed you with open arms, because I cared about my friend.
Now try imagine how I feel, when you say your lonely…
